Talking to Dr. T near end of session today about struggling to find things to look forward to, like stuff on the calendar, how sessions are one thing I have, but I know I need more. So maybe we could discuss suggestions next session. And he said he wasn't really sure what to tell me, that looking at his calendar, he doesn't really have anything on there (I wanted to be like, "What about sessions with me?") aside from renewing his state psychological license later this month. I said that was important, and he said, "But not exciting." He said no trips, no social events, how there aren't many places you'd want to meet outside right now (getting cold in my area). I suppose he refrained from putting "time off" on there to protect my feelings. But it was still rather depressing when my T struggles to come up with ideas of (scheduled) things for me to look forward to. I said, "Well, I look forward to watching football, though my team isn't doing well right now...but I still like watching it." How I had another couple months of that, if COVID doesn't take it away.

He just seemed rather depressed about it all. In a way, it helps that he understands. At the same time, if he's struggling to come up with things to look forward to, seemingly for himself as well...