Thanks for all the positivity and kind words
In my country they have an insurance policy regarding therapy sessions. They only cover for 24 sessions or 12(depends on severity of problems) and once they are over one has to wait for 2 years until they can see a therapist again.
It is possible to see a therapist now but they would have to write detailed reports for every session. The insurance company can then check if therapy is helping or not. In case they see no improvent or slow progress they usually cancel all future sessions.

And no therapist wants to do the extra work which is why I must wait until 2022 to see a new one

But yeah, there are a lot of self help books(got three but just find two of them to be helpful) which usually are pretty good. That way I can at least do a bit of work on my own while I wait for the next therapist.