I'm so sorry that you've had to go through all that. That breaks my heart to hear when someone else has also suffered. How are you coping with it? I know this is going to sound *really* stupid but I can see the innocence in your case. I seem to hold myself up to a different set of rules, a far more stringent set of rules. Why do I do that? The 2nd last time I saw my T she told me that I need to start taking my own advice. I know she's right but I don't know how to do it. WOW!!! "Please be nice to the little girl." Well that speaks volumes doesn't it? I've never been nice to me. I HATE me. Do you think that maybe I'll never be able to let go of all my traumas (of which there are several) until I can start to at least like myself? I think this is getting more and more complex for me. I think that sentence will stay with me for quite awhile and not in a bad way so don't feel bad about posting it. I think that maybe it sheds more light on things in my life. Something that I need to give deeper thought. Thank you for saying that.