I've been very depressed this past week. It'll be another birthday with just my parents this year, but my parents and I have a really poor relationship at this point and it makes me not want to have a birthday celebration at all. And I'll be one year older while still living at home, and that almost as depressing as the poor relationship with my parents. So I'm sad.

And I'm sad because I was too forward with my best friend, a lot of hinting at romantic feelings, and it's now day four and he has not responded, even with a couple light texts since then. So that makes me feel terrible because the one person who means the most to me is probably not wanting to talk to me anymore.

I don't know how to cope. My parents have not mentioned my birthday at all, and my best friend is mad at me too. I feel so lonely and heartbroken. I want to crawl into a hole and never come out....Happy ****ing birthday to me...