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Originally Posted by Toughcooki
Thank you!  I don't think I'm even aware that I'm thinking of changing the subject, etc. Most of the time I feel like someone sitting on a raft in the middle of a giant ocean. Just sitting there, floating along, going where the currents take me. I'm not swimming in the ocean, but I know it's there... Sometimes a wave will splash me so I feel some of the water, but then it dries and I go back to just sitting there. 
I'm glad massage has helped you so much! I identify with so much you said. I hate anyone knowing my weak spots as well. Massage says, 'Vulnerability!' to me. And it sounds terrifying. I have a hard time with handshakes at this point, haha!
Has the Covid been what stopped you from massaging? It's hurt so many people. I hope that it runs down so everyone can get back to their normal lives. |
Yeah...I wasn't working much before Covid, but it felt like things would pick up eventually. It's been a hit. Was telling myself "just another bump in the road"..."roll with the punches"...then eventually anxiety started kicking in... everything got overly complex.
I feel really lucky to have two therapists that have stuck with me and proved to be patient and trustworthy. I'm still fairly self conscious, but less so.
Sorry if it's a tough question, but is there still any abuse in your life? Or anyone that's really pushing your buttons? OK if you don't want to say, or if you want to PM feel free