Thank you Manatee. I am so used distracting because this how I naturally survived for many years as well as shutting down emotionally. Both are my natural default. So what I struggle with is the idea that I am not supposed to do these things that have worked for so many years. In order for me to heal from trauma I need to learn emotional regulation....BUT as soon as I start feeling emotions and unable to handle it, I am told to distract. UGH..