I started reviewing math stuff I’ve already taken classes for in attempts to get back in school for meteorology or chemistry or maybe engineering (or physics or math or x,y,z, or this or that). Something math intensive though. I feel like if I hadn’t been taking calc II with a crap professor while manic, psychotic, doing ECT, and being hospitalized every other month, I could’ve kept going instead of flunking and not wanting to spend another grand to retake the courses I was in.

I feel like I have so much wasted potential. I’m so far behind everyone else my age. I’m stuck in a cycle of self destruction and defeat that I don’t know how to get out of.