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Dec 08, 2020, 04:40 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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Originally Posted by NaoSky
Oh Beth I am so sorry!! I know she will come around. I went through the same thing with my mom. I stopped talking to her for over a year. It took me a long time to accept my mom and love her despite the illness so I know it’s hard for people. I went through it on the other side. It takes patience and understanding.... so I guess I realize too how hard this is for my husband to accept. I just figured we have been together for 10 years, that he would never give up on me. But if children can turn their backs then it’s probably easier for spouses..... 😢
I’ve been staying on meds since July. I don’t plan on getting off of them anytime soon. I may need to get another therapist, but so far just been talking to my doctor and nurse practitioner.... I stopped talking to my counselor because I felt like I did all the suggestions and told them how I felt and went through everything so what was the point on repeating the same stuff.
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Thank you for sharing how you felt about your mom's BD. That information is invaluable to me  .
I'm thinking that another therapist could be truly helpful for you. I've been working with my therapist for over 2 years, and yesterday the strangest thing happened. I actually thought of you afterwards because you're having a hard time with your new diagnosis.
While my therapist was leading me through a relaxation meditation, out of nowhere a thought and feeling came together and I had an extremely strong, solid sense - for the first time in my life - of accepting my bipolar disorder. I mean truly accepting it as a part of who "I" am. I felt that suddenly I don't need to fight against it, I don't need to feel ashamed of it, I don't need to constantly question it (which I have found so draining). The feeling was astounding! I was thinking, WOW, where did THAT come from?! But it's stayed and stuck and I feel that that aspect of my struggle is finally at peace.
In my experience, therapy can do that. You might be working on one issue, but in the meantime your subconscious mind is churning away and suddenly bang! An insight hits you that changes your life, that heals a wound.
So what I'm trying to say is that I bet therapy could help you with feeling less uprooted by your new diagnosis. I believe that if you feel accepting of yourself, and you know you're being the best you possible, and you can forgive yourself - essentially, you have confidence in you as you are - loved ones will naturally have respect for you. Or, if not, you'll still know you're doing your best with your own life.
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