I am severely depressed.My sister,niece and I had a row about vaccine safety and whether my mother who is old,infirm,blind,immoble and lacks capacity should be given the covid vaccine.My sister agreed not to give consent,my niece got very angry,blamed me for my sister's decision and said I had put my mum in danger.She admonished me said I didn't understand the science and that I had dangerous beliefs that were wrong.

She threatened to cut off our relationship and not visit to see me at christmas..

Neither she or my sister care about how I feel and they are ostracising me.I let rip at my niece and told her how I felt she didn't make an effort with visiting mum and trying to connect and deepend bonds with her ,how she didn't have the right to interfere and be involved in this decision how her mum and I were responsible and close to mum.

I said she was arrogant and condescenting and insulting that she had thrown years of the love and support I had showed her in my face.My niece then apologised for causing offense and said we have to agree to disagree,but she left me feeling blamed and in the wrong.

I usually speak to my niece on a sunday via messager because she refuses to talk to me any other day of the week so I have been feeling for some time she neglects me and doesn't care to make time for me,I feel rejected cos I am always the one to initiate contact with her.

She made me severely depressed.I cancelled my zoom therapy today,I wanted to spend the day sleeping and nursing my wounds to escape of the pain of being unwanted and unloved.

I have decided not to initiate contact again with my niece and sister and wait and see if they initiate contact with me.I have a 40 ear abusive toxic relationship with my sister,she was abusive and coercively controlling to me and almost used my mental illness to bring about my death intentially and with motivation.

I am very,very upset and on a downward spiral.

In addition a woman who works at the coffee shop I go to with whom I chat often asked me if mum was to have the vaccine and I said no I have safety fears and she said if my mum and dad were alive I'd want them to have it almost inferring that I didn't care about my mum because if I cared I'd make sure she has the vaccine.In actual fact I do care about my mother a great deal and am not willing to risk the vaccine harming her.