The doctor thinks I may have a kidney stone that’s not passing. He did more blood work and gave me some equipment to try to catch anything. I need to set up the ultrasound for tomorrow hopefully. Last night I felt like I was dying from the pain.

We also have to take our cat to be put to sleep today. I feel awful about it. But he’s been sick for awhile. Just lethargic and stuff. Not moving much and not using the litter box. The other cat has been by his side for a couple weeks. Which makes me think the other cat knows too. It is so heartbreaking for me. With this health issue and the mental health stuff and now the cat I’m not doing too well. I talked with my therapist last night and she doesn’t care if I’m having health issues which are impacting my mental health. She does not want to see me if I don’t complete the program regardless if it’s something physical or not. She says my risk taking and med manipulation that have been going on for awhile just warrants a higher level of care. I wasn’t even trying to get out of the program. I was just updating her.