So Pdoc called he's not happy. I'm going back on the shot for abilify and opening capsules and desolving them for fluoxetine. I don't know why but I'm Sooo scared. I don't know why. It's not like this is new medication for me. But I'm so scared. I don't know when I'm getting the shot probably tomorrow but I'm petrified. I'm laughing right now because I'm so nervous. I may cry when I get the shot. He said I should have gone to the hospital. that insurance does that sometimes and there's nothing he can do about it accept change my meds. Did I mention this is scary! like really scary. What if they give me the wrong injection? what if I have breakthrough symptoms? I'm trying to tell myself something is better then nothing but honestly I don't feel that's true. Then he asked questions and I was like damn I guess I'm not okay. He really likes the hospital. My husband was in the appointment and his jaw dropped because neither of us thought I was that unwell. I'll get over it I guess. I'm just scared and confused. This is not what I accepted my day to be like. I know it will be a sigh of relief for most here and IRL but I'm scared.