Thanks to you too. My diagnosis is "other bipolar/affective disorder". Yeah it could be depression, absolutely could be. I'd just like a name for the feeling.

I tried to tune into the emotion, I tried to "live" it fully and then I sorta got these thoughts:

"I don't wanna do this, why should I do this, fuk you"

And

"why what's the point" ? not sure if that thought is there too.


But I still don't feel it's simply "sulking" or "self-sabotaging". I'd like to narrow it down more.

Would this make sense to anyone better?