Thank you all again for your encouragement and concern, it is a relatively new experience for me. On a night like tonight, comments like these help me more than I can explain.

I am receiving help, be it only recently, but it is help none the less. I've been in therapy for two years but am only becoming comfortable to start talking more in depth now.

Unfortunately, there is no way I am not responsible for my marriage falling apart. I wish I could say that I have no responsibility whatsoever, but the truth is that I am, in part, responsible. It always takes two to tango and even though I don't know specifically what I have done wrong, not done or ignored, it is still partially my fault. It must have been hard for her to have to put up with the mood swings and instability, and all the other symptoms of my illness. I accept that.

Thanks for making me feel a little better and a little relevant to all of you kind people who have taken your time to read what I've written. I am deeply grateful