Today I had a peaceful day,I recovered from the effects on me of the argument with my niece.I was able to go ahead with a zoom therapy session with my psychologist after I tried to cancel it cos I didn't feel I'd be able to talk.I expressed my feelings and frustrations to me psychologist,she understood me and was supportive,so after talking to her I felt I had unloaded my fears and feelings of rejection and feeling abandoned.

So right now I am feeling better and I feel good that for the next couple of days I can be at home peaceful and getting my chores done.I am glad to be in my own company and am enjoying the solitude.I am also looking forward to christmas.The depression is still hovering and my moods do go low,but Its nothing new,I just have to get through the black clouds and wait until the light reemerges and it will that much is certain.I did feel lethargic and unmotivated today.It is now gone midnight and before I get in bed there is a massive pile of dirty dished in the kitchen sink that I want to wash and dry and put away first.So well I am coping and got through today.