Hi there,

I may be way off base here, but I am struggling with emotional identification as well. I sort of get the kind of feeling you're describing especially when I might enjoy the task, but it becomes repetitive or I don't get recognition for what I've done as I also put my all into doing something. So it's important that it feels important and worth while to me.

I have discovered that I usually go through a feeling of rebelliousness (where I say the **** u part, which normally indicates that I'm feeling kind of like the task isn't seen as all that important by others. As in they palm it off to me and even though I might enjoy the task for a time I get peeved that it's not really that important. ( I don't know if I'm describing it right, but it kind of comes close I guess. Like there's an element of frustration and anger as well as feeling under appreciated?... kind of?)

The other emotion I feel is if I've done it really well and no-one even notices, which makes me feel like I did something wrong or I'm guilty of something and that triggers more self-hatred etc.

I hope this maybe helped a bit? If I'm completely wrong, I'm really very sorry and I'll try be better at this next time. I just wanted to help