So I guess to make a long story short my childhood best friend has really been struggling with her drinking, she's gotten into a habit of only calling when she's been drinking and I finally today, when she called at 8 a.m and had obviously been drinking and admitted when asked that she been drinking told her I would talk to her later and hung up. She just messaged me upset and I told her I loved her but that I just can't start my day that way anymore. She calls yelling, slurring her words etc. Now, she is not yelling at me but about her asshat husband. BUT, it's the same rant, same fight they have been having for like 3 years and I'm not exaggerating. It's a horrible, toxic relationship. I feel like a **** human right now but I also feel like I have the right to set that boundary. I want to be there for her I HAVE been there for her but it's extremely upsetting to take those calls I also have my own mental health and addiction issues that I walk a fine line with and this all so triggering. She messaged me that she would never bother me again.

Also, she never asks about me..how am I doing. Actually, she did just ask me a few weeks ago how my stepdad was doing and he had passed away a year ago and she didn't even remember he had died, honestly that was kind of a huge eye opener for me.

Whew, that didn't up being so short after all huh. If you made it this far, thanks for reading. Just sad about the whole thing and feeling like a terrible friend.