I must confess I have not taken my Seroquel in like two months except for exceptions like last night. Still on Risperdal shots for a reason, I guess haha. Yesterday was so weird I can control the weather I cleaned out the freezer and it snowed a little! A sign???? I think so!!!! Last night there was someone who kept moving in my bed like shaking but it was just me so that’s why I took the seroquel hopefully to sleep and I did sleep but the noises are still there and I’m still sensing things moving when they are NOT! I’m like that, always moving but staying still.

Cats had to go back to the vet yesterday. High blood pressure and kidney disease. They are both 16 and now have to take pills and need to ween them on a prescription k/d diet that the vet said they won't like because it tastes like cardboard. I tasted cat food before its just really salty cardboard (the dry stuff anyways). My cousin tried wet food said its better. Somethings got to give. I was SUPPOSED to make French toast with my boyfriend today but he forgot all about me I think. Good. I think he gave me herpes anyways... Oh and I got a few turns in on the five inches of solid ice. No control and lots of trees and rocks. Going to get a new touring set up, expensive but it’ll save me money in the long run and who doesn’t want to be on top of Mt. Washington in the winter?

I also have made my way into a book the doctor an IOP I used to go to wrote. “Very serious bipolar disorder....constant risk to herself and others...” but does well on medication, yeah, he only thinks that because I stop word vomiting on meds and I can keep my secrets. I wonder what they would do about my injection if I got sick? Maybe put me back on pills so I wouldn’t have to go to the clinic? I am doing very well now though. Perfect From Now On.