i am (was going to write it in caps) so Sorry to hear about Your situation, frank! i COMPLETELY Agree with ALL the other Wise And Wonderful People on this forum. You are truly a noble warrior And fighter, Being a parent. Have You considered getting some kind of therapy perhaps? That may Help making You feel a little bit less lonely, having SomeOne to talk to, And at the same Time You may also get some Support And some Advice about how to proceed with Your Life. i am so Sorry if this Advice was not particularlu Helpful but perhaps give it a Try if You Want to! You Matter A LOT! SEnding Many Safe, Warm Hugs to BOTH You, @FrankIV, Your Family, Your FriEnds, Your children And ALL Of Your Loved Ones! Keep fighting And keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!