I’m wondering if it’s something to do with procrastination - basically not wanting to do something because you have a fear of failure. That’s something I read when I was having trouble getting on with a personal project I actually really enjoy when I get into it. The fear of failure I’m a little on the fence about, because it won’t actually matter a huge amount if I do “fail” at this. But, as they say, your mileage may vary.
I’m not too great at identifying feelings, either, so feel free to ignore this if you don’t think it applies to your situation.