(((angel)))) you have to quit "trying" and 'just' "allow" the information to go into your brain... think well, it might very well be true.... if you are having trouble realiizing what happened back then, how much more trouble do you think you would have understanding when you were little??? You couldn't.

Even "if" you remember your mother telling you to be careful of strangers... golly, haven't you ever seen the tv docu's about chldren who are "trained" to not go with strangers, and a professional/doctor can walk right up, make an excuse, and off they go! The childr's mind isn't programmed, normally, to be able to be vigilant. You're still thinking in the adult...

can you think about what your favorite things were as a child? books? hobbies? colors? maybe that will help you realize the innocence and naviete?