Hey take it easy on yourself. No need to be disgusted. It is what it is. Being hyperaroused is par for the course? You didn’t cheat on anyone (I think) nor did you have sex. You can’t change what happened but remind yourself of how you feel right now next time you get horny and you’re hypo. It’s not your thing by the sounds of things but honestly I just don’t think you need to beat yourself up over it. Hang in there!