Well what the heck happened today? The child me came to the session expecting to be awkward, difficult and shut down after last week, but somehow we actually managed to have one of the best sessions we have had since I began seeing you a couple of months ago. Ok granted we didn’t get in to any deep stuff and it was quite a general session but for the first time I managed to make a joke with you about the way I think. Also the first time I’ve left a session feeling hopeful that this relationship could work. But now I’m scared that I’m going to end up being wrong and have started to think it’s actually easier to just believe it won’t work and that way I can’t be disappointed. I know, f***ed up, right?