You all are very helpful. There was a video mock performance interview for an hour that I didn’t feel comfortable doing. I told my best friend and she basically told me that either I was a professional or I wasn’t. If I thought I wasn’t capable/competent to not do it. After that I felt I had to do it. My parents and friends don’t know about my struggles with mental illness. They would not be understanding. I’ve hidden this from them my entire adult life. The only people that know are my pdoc, my husband, and two of my adult children.

The company is a start up. I’m thinking of doing two things: They require us to get our professional information certified by a certain date through a website that takes hours to navigate and fill things out. I’m thinking of saying the website had issues and I couldn’t verify my credentials and had to stop working (weak) or after a few months saying the startup failed and shut down.