I'm so sorry you've been experiencing this. I cannot relate due to the aspect of your parents. (mine would just say ''its my decision'' in a mean voice...) I think, the fewer lies we tell, the healthier it is. (for us and others)... Sometimes it's not possible. I screwed up an interview that sounded similar to yours. Due to anxiety.....(my parents did also harrass me although soon became too ''indifferent'' to even care.) It does not define us. (although some would like to say it does )