I have been told and shown, all my life (literally) ... how wrong, ''selfish'' and undeserving of being appreciated I am by ''family''.... and yet, when I observe the behaviour of some others in this world, I am not such a ''bad'' person as that person convinced the WHOLE ''family'' I am.... and it's not something I can ''just move on'' from. Ugh. I wish.... I have ''moved away'' from them but their echoes haunt my dreams

''meds'' are not an option....

Sometimes.. I would give anything to silence those voices in my head

(this is not about the situation in the world)

I've been taking more ''benzos'' (the only med I can tolerate) for the last few nights just to survive. Ugh. I can only hope tonight will be a bit better...

Thanks

much love to all