I am physically very cold right now. It's late here.

I also feel cold inside

I also think punishment is an ugly concept.

The step maternal unit who ''stole'' my ''dad'' from the mother and I.... told me I ''should be punished all my life'' for ''ruining'' my mother's life. My ''dad'' also said I had ''ruined'' my mother's life.

I once said to my mother that what they did to me (throwing me out and much more..) was like me being in prison.

She simply said (in an indifferent and defensive tone) ''yes it was''

I once told her that she had hurt me.

She just said ''ditto''

I once said maybe she could have given me another ''chance''

Her reply ''I gave you a lot of chances''

Maybe this gives some idea. It was like beating my head against a brick wall trying to ''communicate'' with any of that ''family''

I was the one who got the ''diagnosis''.... they were NPD or ''worse''.... I have worked that out myself.