Well, I couldn't handle this anymore so I called him to at least get my money back, he picked up and he said "What, hang up the damn phone so that I don't hang it in your face, don't you understand bulgarian, I have other things now I don't want to talk to you now, I don't have time for you, thanks for calling..." so yeah. And that is 2 weeks after we had a sort of a nice video chat. I guess you never really know someone. I blocked him and unfriended him. I hope I will not see him on TV soon or any news. I now have to battle the panic attacks I get when I am in a room full of people and the feeling of suffocation that goes with them. Never had panic attacks before I met him and went through this. I am beyond destroyed mentally, emotionally and even physically. I know this was the best thing to happen in long term but I really did not need this and I certainly don't feel like this is what I deserved. And that is person who is supposedly a face of a show and is relying on his image for clients. Nothing in this world will make me believe that reality tv is not just for views now that I've seen the utter idiots that are given money and fame and they treat others like this. Maybe I will never be the same, I don't know, but I am going through one of my most difficult times ever... And I consider myself strong person.
My friends are all so supportive, checking up on me, even organised a campaign to downvote his recipe videos on youtube which was so nice of them, I know it won't change much, but I felt supported which is what I needed really. I just need time, so much time.... I hope I can at least have some of my previous self back.