Thank you Beth. Do you meet them in person or virtual?

Virtual during covid. *sigh*

I may decide to get one again... right now I’m good to just get through the day, I can’t think of adding much of anything else to my schedule. But I’m sure it could be helpful.



That’s cool that you thought of me. I hope one day I can accept all of it. I think I’m still in the shock, anger, and sadness part of it. I just still don’t understand why it happened to me and I don’t think it’s fair. I hate that it ruined my family and that I hurt my husband.

Yes, I did think of you.

You're probably going through stages of grief, feeling that you've lost your identity...who you thought you were.

I feel like I had too much fun and deserve consequences but at the same time know that it wasn’t in my control so why won’t he forgive me? He also read that my actions were what I really felt inside and I don’t know that’s 100% true.

Apparently, for most people empathizing with a mental illness is not possible...maybe it's too scary.

When I think back to how we were before this I know some things made me unhappy but I never thought I’d leave him... and even in the beginning of the mania I felt super in love with him.... but when he got concerned I confused it with control and that’s why I started the divorce process and told him to leave. But when I think now about how I feel, I want him, and I want to stay together and make it work. I get that he’s scared and thinks I’m going to do it again, and I can’t promise anything because I’ve got this illness.... so it sucks!!! I wish I could say it won’t happen again. I hope it doesn’t. I told him I was going to stay on my meds and get help.... but I don’t know if it’s enough.

Have you communicated this to him?

I know time is the only thing that will help us.... I’m just so sad about everything....

It's understandable. Still, excruciatingly painful.