She’s just been rude and passive aggressive lately. She refused to have any contact with me during my IOP which I do get. Last week I was in crisis and immediately after I sent her an email she put up her “out of office sign” then today my Pdoc needed some info from me to give to her since he doesn’t give out his email. I had my mom send the info to her because I didn’t want to screw anything else up. My mom didn’t get an out of office email and got a response in an hour. Last week was the first time she had an out of office email. Then on Monday she said she doesn’t care if my problems are physical she won’t work with me until I complete the IOP program. My case manager told me it sounds like I do have some type of underlying physical issue causing everything.

She’s just been different lately and I don’t know why. It just makes me feel unlikeable and a burden. But then today I’ve gotten a lot of support from other people who I can tell legit care including my pdoc. Maybe my therapist doesn’t think I’m worth it because I’ll be moving next spring. My mom said she may be frustrated that I’m getting worse while working with her and not better. Like she’s responsible or something. My mom says it sounds like she has her own set of problems.

Also the last time we met I was talking about my SI and she said if I did anything she’d lose her job and not be able to provide for her family And she didn’t mention anything about how my own family would feel if something happened. It’s like she was just trying to save herself.