Basically I was not properly socialized when I grew up. Therefore I have not been able to integrate myself into society. I feel comfortable in society doing a prescribed number of things. However, when I go beyond those things I feel anxious. For instance when driving I am afraid to look at anyone coming from the opposite direction. I have developed a habit of focusing my vision only on my side of the street. However I can only do this for so long until I get tired. When I inevitably let some driver in my sight it seems that that person is mad at me. It almost seems that people can pick up on my goal of not looking at them and try to enforce it as a rule. I spend my time away from the public in an extremely angry state. I feel the same about having certain thoughts.