Hi @Mountaindewed, just wanted to reply to this part of your post. I know it feels that way--that she is only caring about herself and her family. I think some--not all--some mental health professionals get freaked out about SI. Even when I went to the hospital in January for SH the ER doctor was YELLING at me. I couldn't understand his anger. Like sheesh, what is wrong with you dude? My T explained that if he made the wrong choice and sent me home and then I did commit S, he could be in a lot of trouble or face a lawsuit. Plus he would have my death on his head. I was like, why it wouldn't be his fault? But she says that is what it feels like.


I think there is a great deal of responsibility that mental health professionals feel when working with someone who is having SI. And if they are managing and taking good care of themselves and getting proper supervision and have experience, most--again not all--will manage that responsibility. But some mental health professionals freak out. And some respond poorly. Not because they don't care about you or your family. But because it is such a heavy responsibility. If something--Heaven forbid--did happen to you, they would have to carry that for the rest of their life. That they missed something. That they didn't help enough. That they failed in some way. That's heavy stuff. So while her words were poorly chosen, I do think that she is sincerely thinking through the consequences of what would happen if you for some reason did commit S.


I hope you feel better soon.