Dear just lost,
Oh, how heartbreaking. I can't even imagine all the emotions you must be suffering because of what happened. I wish I knew what to say to help ease the pain of it all. I hope that somehow you can make some friends and find some things that give your life meaning, direction and fulfilment. That is so easy to say when I am not in your shoes. Hopefully others here will have words that give you more encouragement, consolation, understanding and comfort than my poor words. So very, very sorry that I don't know how to be helpful to you!
Sincerely yours, Yao Wen