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Old Dec 12, 2020, 11:12 AM
FluffyDinosaur FluffyDinosaur is offline
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Originally Posted by BethRags View Post
I learned from my therapist and my pdoc about the "hamster on a wheel" thought pattern. It's also a big issue for me that meds don't seem to help much. In the better and more in-depth mental health books, journals, etc. I've read about how stuck thinking is an aspect of BD. I am certainly affected by it.
That's very interesting. Do you happen to remember any of the titles of those books? It's something I struggle with a lot so it would be good to learn more. With regard to ECT, unfortunately I am *still* waiting and still doing just as badly, if not worse. The hospital is incredibly bureaucratic and inefficient. I've been told more times than I can count that they'll have news for me "next week" but there's always another delay. First I was hoping to finish treatment before the end of the year, then I was hoping to start before the end of the year, and now I'm just hoping I'll ever get treated at all. Unfortunately I don't really have any options, because if I try to go somewhere else I'll just have to wait for even longer. It is beyond frustrating. There are times when I wonder if this isn't all some giant unethical experiment to determine my breaking point. They're not far off in finding it.

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