That's very interesting. Do you happen to remember any of the titles of those books? It's something I struggle with a lot so it would be good to learn more. With regard to ECT, unfortunately I am *still* waiting and still doing just as badly, if not worse. The hospital is incredibly bureaucratic and inefficient. I've been told more times than I can count that they'll have news for me "next week" but there's always another delay. First I was hoping to finish treatment before the end of the year, then I was hoping to start before the end of the year, and now I'm just hoping I'll ever get treated at all. Unfortunately I don't really have any options, because if I try to go somewhere else I'll just have to wait for even longer. It is beyond frustrating. There are times when I wonder if this isn't all some giant unethical experiment to determine my breaking point. They're not far off in finding it.