she wrote me a note.

It said ''stew in your own juice''

She forced me to sit in a pram when I was 5 to shame me.

She wanted me to marry someone who physically, psychologically and sexually abused me as she hated me being in her large house. She wanted her sister to herself. But I was SO SELFISH. So she threw me out and I lived with the other gutter brats. Or alone in the dirt. I deserved even worse.. prison probably Then I would have been the whipping ***** and hated by all the abusers there ... a fitting punishment for being born the wrong sex and wrong everything else.

She wanted me to die

I wish they had finished the job

No, I am so ''weak'' I do not ''deal'' with it