So I got brave enough to talk to my husband tonight. I was nervous and shaking. I’m typically non confrontational and during my mania I said too much.... so I’m back in my shell but way worse because of the depression.... so talking to him was huge for me. I told him I didn’t want him to be with me out of obligation or feel like he’s stuck but wanted to know where he stood and I told him where I stood. He’s basically scared and doesn’t know for sure... he said he feels cold toward me and thinks he needs time for his heart to warm back up. He said he could take a month or 6 months, he doesn’t know. He’s worried that I could go manic again and doesn’t want to go through it again. We also had CPS involved so he’s afraid of them if I get hospitalized again. He just has a lot of fears. I told him he had every right to feel that way. So even though there was no closure, I feel better for bringing it up. It’s like a lot has been lifted. So I guess time will tell....