I think I figured out my mental health problems and why I get so angry and moody and why I’ve been so anxious but then I’m fine a few days later.

I think I’m still dealing with PMDD. I haven’t gotten my period since April but for a few months I was still getting bad PMS every month. I kinda forgot that PMDD existed until I looked at my calendar this morning and realized I was supposed to get my period 2 days after the S incident in November. Now I’m supposed to get it again tomorrow. So that’s why I had no idea what was going on mental health wise. I completely forgot I have PMDD. I was gonna tell my treatment team on Tuesday and hopefully they will all come together and help me get the approval for a hysterectomy. I had planned on getting one done anyways but I didn’t know how bad things still were.

But there’s also something physical going on as well with my kidneys which makes this month especially hard. The pain is real bad today. I have every symptom of kidney disease which worries me. I had the symptoms before looking them up. Leg cramps and even my loss of taste of food are symptoms. And having no motivation to eat plus all the pain too. I’m pretty worried.