Ok, eeeeasy because I am not trying to attack you, just trying to understand you better ok? I am sorry you experienced a home environment where individuals had alcohol addiction challenges. It's understandable why you want to distance from that type of individual, "me too". When there are alcohol or drug addiction challenges the addicts have very narcissistic behavior patterns because of how the drinking or addiction becomes their priority. It's the nature of the disease itself and how it affects the brain. This makes it so unhealthy for someone to grow up around. It's no wonder you grew severely depressed to the point where you needed help. I am VERY SORRY about that, you certainly did not deserve to experience that, no one does.