I have been in therapy for about 9 years, with some breaks in between. With several different therapists, as I have moved a couple times.

Depression, history of sexual abuse , thoughts of hurting myself, panic attacks, low self-esteem, being a doormat......

I have mostly been depressed all my life since age 8, even with thoughts of harming myself. It started when my older brother sexually abused me. Family was chaotic with mom depressed and dad schizophrenic. I buried myself in music and my flute, graduated college and got married and had a career but knew I wasn't well and never felt happy. Never sought treatment. When I was about 39 my dad passed away suddenly. That seemed to be the final thing that I couldn't handle, plus having to be back around my abuser at the funeral after not for many years.

I think it has kept me alive and helped me learn how to cope. It's not like I see major changes in myself, but small improvements in how I cope.