Time slows down when you are depressed. I'm sorry you weren't able to find someone to help you. Keep trying! If you need to, go to the ER. Did you tell these people how serious it is? I remember how bogged down and trapped I felt when my kids were all too young for me to be able to leave and get a break, and there wasn't money for a babysitter, and no real support. And I have a husband. He just always saw the kids as my responsibility. It must be even harder to be trying to do it alone.

I don't know if it's the same where you are, but here they have "family services" and will take the kids for a day or two so that a single mother can have a break and destress. DCFS would know about it. I know it's scary - it would be for me too - but they are there to help. There just has to be someone if you keep asking and let them know that it really is urgent. Keep posting here and let us know how you are doing, ok?

Take Care!