Hi and welcome to the board. I was diagnosed this year and did not believe it until I sunk into a depression. I’m 42 so I thought I was past the age where you could develop BD. I feel your pain. I’m going through this too and don’t want to accept that I will have to deal with this for the rest of my life. I’m having a hard time trying to see myself through this illness. I’m hoping one day I can accept it more and that my quality of life will improve.

I think places like this where we can get things off our chest will be helpful. I’ve only been on here for about a month and I’ve received some great advice. It also helps to know that we are not alone through our struggles.

I’m suffering insomnia so I know how you feel about that too, hopefully your sleep will improve. I’ve found a YouTube video from the mindful movement for meditation for sleep has been the most effective, even better than sleep pills with no side effects.