Thankyou my friends from the bottom of my heart, I am so glad you replied cos I was scared no-one would and I need that reassurance that I am ok so much at the moment.
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You took time to notice me and I appreciate that so much.
I am still a bit low, not as bad though, and your replies help me fight those neg. thoughts. Its all so tiring, as I feel sure you know.
I go to a program for ppl with chronic health probs and we set a goal each week. This week we talked about the benefits of exercise (basic stuff) and I set my goal at having a 20 min walk 4 days this week.
I went out yesterday to try and feel I was doing something positive.
I went to the local shopping precinct and treated myself to a magazine about clothes etc. I know it may seem shallow, but I love clothes, etc and cos I don't really go anywhere anymore I really miss looking in shops and trying on, planning outfits, and wearing 'em !
I get dressed up just to go to the dr, or counsellor, or dentist - sad, huh ?
Does anyone else feel this loss of something that others out there take for granted ? My clothes make me happy, and help me feel good. At home I'm just dossing around in joggypants and a black top covered in cat hair !!!!!
I was just then going to apologise, but no ! not giving in to that. I am not ashamed about the clothes stuff.
When I was a young teenager just discovering hairstyles, fashion, make up and women's magazines I was told that it was shallow by my dad, I always felt that was all I was - a shallow, emptyheaded female.
But, after years of self discovery and following my heart I know that I have many sides to me, some very serious. I think ppl need the shallow as well as the deep - specially when the deep side takes on too much of the woes of other ppl and the world.
So, heres to wearing lovely clothes and having a good old dance to my beloved soul music
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I'll get back there one day !
Thanks for listening, chicks..........Poppet