I know I am absolutely required to tell my program if I’m having any S or SH thoughts. They said that doesn’t automatically mean inpatient. Basically I just really want to sleep all night so I won’t have to deal with my pain or my depression. The cough syrup is hidden so I think I’ll ask my mom to hide the melatonin as well. So I can at least tell my case manager I took the right actions and didn’t act on the thoughts.