I spoke with my father, my sister and my cousin tonight. It helped. It helps to talk it out with family members especially. I also decided I am going to start camping out at my parents' home every couple of days. There is space for me to sit and work and not disturb them at all and we can be socially distant easily enough. That's my new plan. I need to get out of this isolation that I am in... it's making things far worse for me.