hmmm... 14 months with this therapist, 4 with the previous one and then there was about 7-8 months with the therapist-that-wasnt about 12 yrs ago.
this time? crisis situation.. i was breaking down after several years of trying to be everything to a mentally ill spouse who had become abusive. i needed to just survive at first, then disentangle myself, now build a life
the cause? i was like a glove waiting for a hand... a person with narcissistic personality disorder was a match made in heaven, in terms of the perfect fit. The crisis, etc came from that match and the fall out. How did i get to be that susceptable in the first place? Many reasons.. but we are re-starting history work tomorrow (eep)
how successful has it been? well.. i finally did tell my spouse i couldnt do it any more. i am on my own and building a life. i am doing things that were not possible for me before. i still struggle, i still have gaping holes in my confidence and self esteem, and i am still without many basic skills. But then again.. im still working on it. i think it has been a roaring success so far.... i dont see ways in which it has failed. i know there have been many painful times, doubts, fears and outright agony. I have doubted him and me... damn near hated him.. and yet, he stays. Solid. No complaints here.
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