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Moose72 · Dec 14, 2020, 10:36 PM

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Originally Posted by sarahsweets

I believe I was always bipolar but back in the day when I was 16 they didnt know kids could be bipolar so I was just looked at as a troubled kid. I know my mom feels bad that they didnt know about bipolar in kids. I was hospitalized when I was a teen and my mom didnt know what was wrong with me, I wasnt officially diagnosed until mu 20's. My mom still feels regret that they didnt give me a diagnosis when I was a teen because then it was just kids being troubled. She realizes now that It was a mental illness but they didnt know that kids could be bipolar. It got worse as I got older and when I hit my 20's it became apparent that it was more than just a teen thing, Once I started getting treated she realized that all this time I should have been treated but they didnt know what they didnt know back then.

I saw a psychiatrist at 16, too. I just knew something wasn't right. That I was different. But that pdoc just said I was a "normal teenager". I went from 16 to 33 before I was diagnosed. Dealing with manias and depressions all on my own. Fighting with people because they thought I was crazy and that yelling back at me would help. I grew up in an alcoholic family, too. Still dealing with that at times. So yeah- they didn't know I was bipolar. I didn't know. And I suffered what with that plus my dad being an alcoholic and my mom being borderline. (My guess, anyway.) I spent years dating men I barely knew and having sex with them, too. Sometimes without condoms. I'd get disassociated and wander. Once I got up in the middle of the night and went to starbucks that was open all night and then I got up and drove into town and wandered under this odd fog of mania for hours. Nobody knew. My primary dr finallyl saw something about me and sent me to psych. It took a bit, but I was fianally diagnosed Bipolar NOS which turned into bipolar 1.