So I don't know if I'm depressed and thinking unclearly. If something in me is screaming that I'm going to crash soon. I can't sleep because every time I close my eye's it feels like something (non-medizing) is standing over me. Like a ghost that needs help or something but I don't believe in ghosts. So it can't be that. So I settle on paranoia. My son's gifts got delayed so he'll have very little which means he'll watch us open gifts and not get much. Only 1/2 the presents are wrapped and we haven't got our baby tree yet. T calls in 2 days and I don't know what to say. My moods fine, I'm less psychotic. but I don't know I feel done, maybe lost. I just don't know.