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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom
So I don't know if I'm depressed and thinking unclearly. If something in me is screaming that I'm going to crash soon.
I can't sleep because every time I close my eye's it feels like something (non-medizing) is standing over me. Like a ghost that needs help or something but I don't believe in ghosts. So it can't be that. So I settle on paranoia. My son's gifts got delayed so he'll have very little which means he'll watch us open gifts and not get much. Only 1/2 the presents are wrapped and we haven't got our baby tree yet. T calls in 2 days and I don't know what to say. My moods fine, I'm less psychotic. but I don't know I feel done, maybe lost. I just don't know. |
I told another member today I really just wanted to die. Not by S. I am just exhausted fro constant anguish, loss. Jus done with earth. Finished
But God will not permit this. Has given me this giant to do list. Run this big company all over the world. Do not want to. And yet, we have a duty to vaccinate everyone. Which we are doing. For like zero freaking profit. Vaccines are a **** business, financially.
Anyway. Whining. I have to try to stay healthy to get the job done. Onward. Love and hugs. I really miss you guys. Wish we were not on C freaking NN all the time and so busy
Ugh.