Skeksi,

Please don't let me create additional doubt in your therapeutic relationship. I never discussed these feeling with a professional but..I think I obviously have issues with attachment--LOL. I think they need an icon on PC that indicates when a very warped perspective is presented. LOL.

What I posted was my FEELINGS, not rational thoughts.
I frequently FEEL this way, however when I go back and evaluate these feeling there is NO evidence to support them. When I am thinking clearly and rationally, I have no doubt that my T care about me as a person, and genuinely wants to help me. I don't believe that she is just going through the motions or daily grind of a meaningless job. Honestly, I have no idea what she actually did with my Christmas card. All I can say is that if I had received a card from someone like me, I would be very touched! I think most sane individuals would. I would not simply throw it in his/her academic folder or use it to evaluate or judge them. The real question I should be asking myself is...Why do I think so little of my T's character??? Why do I think she is in human? The answer is I don't, I just think so little of myself some times that I can't imagine that people could really give a crap if I thanked or appreciated them or not.

Skeksi,
You are not alone about worrying about the safety of the relationship and risk of possible exploitations, manipulation, brainwashing, mental torture, and disclosure of private information. I had a LOT of problems with these issues. Just look at some of my earlier posts. I paid out of pocket for the first few therapy sessions, because I didn't want my insurance company to know I was getting therapy. These feelings still surface, like they did today, but I am getting better at seeing how flawed my thinking can be.