i don't know how to do it or what to say. and man, i wish i had people like that! but my family is like a joke, especially when it comes to me. they are like the opposite of compassionate and understanding.
plus it's incredibly challenging having a 'medical person' in the family, especially when it comes to MIs! they try to interject and 'fix' what they can't, and don't respond kindly to the notion that they can't....


my scans have been set for the end of this month. and i think that's making it seem more scary and real - like holy s**t this is actually happening!! and i've barely survived the past two years -> how the h can i do more!?!